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I knew this day would come soon but I didn't want it to. Miina, my family's cat had to be put to sleep today. She had been sick for months, but we believed and hoped that she'd get better. Some days she seemed normal... and some days she had stomach problems.
I saw her for the last time on Sunday when I visited my grandparents. She didn't look like herself anymore. She had lost weight, and her fur didn't look good. She looked so tired and apathetic... But she still came to greet me and climbed up on my lap. When I left, she sat at the window. I had a feeling that I probably wouldn't see her again... I kept swallowing back tears for the whole drive home.
Today, my grandma called me and told me that Miina was dead. I've never heard her cry so much... She and grandpa buried Miina's body at our cottage. She loved being there.
I'm still in a bit of a shock, but painful realizations have already started to sink in. I'll never see her again, I'll never hold her on my lap again, I'll never pet her again, I'll never hear her purr again... Next time I'll go to take a shower at my grandparents' place, she won't be scratching the door... Next time I'll sit down on the sofa at my grandparents' place, she won't come to my lap and start suckling on my clothes (That was an annoying habit, but anyway)... Next time we'll go to our cottage, she won't be bringing dead rodents to us...
She was the sweetest cat I've known. Very social and human-friendly. Curious and playful. Funny and gentle. I miss her so much... But I'm glad she's not in pain anymore. And I'm thankful for the 16 years we got to spend with her.
I saw her for the last time on Sunday when I visited my grandparents. She didn't look like herself anymore. She had lost weight, and her fur didn't look good. She looked so tired and apathetic... But she still came to greet me and climbed up on my lap. When I left, she sat at the window. I had a feeling that I probably wouldn't see her again... I kept swallowing back tears for the whole drive home.
Today, my grandma called me and told me that Miina was dead. I've never heard her cry so much... She and grandpa buried Miina's body at our cottage. She loved being there.
I'm still in a bit of a shock, but painful realizations have already started to sink in. I'll never see her again, I'll never hold her on my lap again, I'll never pet her again, I'll never hear her purr again... Next time I'll go to take a shower at my grandparents' place, she won't be scratching the door... Next time I'll sit down on the sofa at my grandparents' place, she won't come to my lap and start suckling on my clothes (That was an annoying habit, but anyway)... Next time we'll go to our cottage, she won't be bringing dead rodents to us...
She was the sweetest cat I've known. Very social and human-friendly. Curious and playful. Funny and gentle. I miss her so much... But I'm glad she's not in pain anymore. And I'm thankful for the 16 years we got to spend with her.
Happy New Year!
So, 2023 is almost over. This year was a pretty exhausting one, lots of negative energy... I'm still heartbroken over all the drama in my family, but I'm slowly learning to set up healthy boundaries... and learning to accept that maybe some people just aren't meant to get along, blood or not. And their drama is not my drama. And I'm allowed to be my own person and have my own life. I had many interesting (or "interesting") experiences this year. I had my last wisdom tooth removed, I moved (again), I bought a new car... I had Covid for the first time. I did some travelling. I had plantar fasciitis in my right foot (and it was PAINFUL!). I finished one of my comics, 'Correcting Injustice'. I'm very excited for next year. I have big plans, both life-wise and art-wise. I don't want to reveal too much, but I can tell you one thing. I'm going to do that "Draw Something Every Day" challenge again. The one I did in
Happy 2023.
This bunny I drew in Paint represents my year 2022. I don't know what to think about it. On one hand, some good things happened. I finally graduated. My boyfriend moved in with me. Both were awesome things. But on the other hand, I had a lot of work stress, some resurfacing childhood trauma, and a lot of problems with my family. Not to sound too dramatic or anything, but my family is falling apart and I don't think it can be fixed. I had to go low contact with some people, and I'm willing to go no contact if their toxic behavior doesn't change. I'm absolutely heartbroken. But I also feel... free? I had gotten so used to being used, controlled, guilt-tripped and manipulated that I didn't even realize it was happening. But now I'm starting to see that I've been losing myself for years... So yeah. That was my 2022. I sure hope 2023 will be better!
Exciting News :D
Well, maybe more exciting for me than for you guys, but anyway... Backstory: I haven't had a good night's sleep in 8 months. And I'm not exaggerating. On the best days I'm just tired but can still somewhat function. On the worst days I'm a zombie and can't get anything done (or do stupid things, like a few days ago I almost microwaved one of my orchids). The ventilation system thingy (not sure what it's called in English, or even in Finnish) of this building must be broken or something. It's been making this extremely annoying noise for 8 months. A noise that comes through earplugs and earmuffs. A noise that's impossible for me to ignore. It has been keeping me awake. I only sleep when I get so tired that I just kind of... die? And that's not healthy. Two nights ago it was so bad, I tried sleeping on the balcony, even though the nights here are still pretty cold. I'm starting in a new job on Monday, in a hospital. And I want to be not-dead for the sake of the patients. Whatever is
Old piece of art + Spring Update
Hi! I hope you guys are well. :) First, the Spring Update. I'm pretty busy and tired right now, so I'm not very active on here. It's only temporary. I'm currently doing my very last internship. This is my 3rd week, and after this week, there's going to be 2 more weeks. I'm so ready for this to be over. :XD: Not that I don't like learning, but I'm just sooo tired. I'm in a strange city I've never been to before, and I have to share a flat with strangers. I'm too old to have roommates... Linneakitty is staying with my grandparents. They're in good paws. I'll try to be a little more active on here after the internship ends, at least for a while. I miraculously got a summer job in my home city, so I won't have to move anywhere like I did last summer, when I had two apartments. :XD: I'll be starting in early May. --- And now, a little story. My mother sent me photos of some drawings and paintings I did in school as a child. As soon as I saw this one... ... I felt a wave of
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She was a beautiful kitty. You were lucky to have her in your life and she was more than lucky to have you in hers, as well as the rest of the family.
She'll be flying high, and definitely will be waiting for you.
This year has been a hard year for everyone I think. My family and I lost our girl in October. Kali, was a King Shepherd. We have some comfort in being able to rely on Koby, her nephew who we still have in our lives. He makes an hard day an easier day.
Keep your chin up, and think about all the happy memories.
She'll be flying high, and definitely will be waiting for you.
This year has been a hard year for everyone I think. My family and I lost our girl in October. Kali, was a King Shepherd. We have some comfort in being able to rely on Koby, her nephew who we still have in our lives. He makes an hard day an easier day.
Keep your chin up, and think about all the happy memories.
